Odd Dreams

I've been noticing a recurring theme in a lot of the most vivid dreams that I've been having over the last several months. In these dreams, I'm either pregnant or I have a baby either through my own pregnancy or some strange twist of fate. Once, it was because some guy held up the restaurant I was at and when I talked him out of killing us all, he gave me his infant son to raise before letting us go and killing himself.

I know, disturbing dream.

The reason I blog about this is because last night, I was visited by yet another baby dream. I was in some sort of fantasy world in which I was attending school for... something. I simply remember that I wore a uniform and that I was only really happy when I was singing. Along comes this guy. He's sweet and slightly awkward, and through some odd happenstance, I had apparently gotten formally engaged to this guy and somehow pregnant because of him. I was upset and angry with him, because I felt like I had no choice in all of this. Still, through the dream, I kept my "situation" from him and started falling for him. When it came out that I was with child, he suddenly pulled this really cool move where he turned into a freaking panther and stole me away to his family's home. Turns out he's a prince or some such, and had magic.

I spent the rest of my dream simply spending time with him and getting bigger and bigger. I woke up well before I was due, but you know what? I really wanted to get back to that dream. Stupid biological clock. Stupid hormones. I guess I'm at the age of wanting a baby and it's permeating into my subconscious.

...I hope that there's not a guy out there who's thinking of dating me that reads my blog, because I just scared him away. Ah, well. I know that it's unreasonable to have a baby now. I mean, I'm in the middle of school and don't have a husband nor a "real job". Still. I really wish that I could have my own family soon. It's been strange, hanging around mostly couples. It really makes me feel... alone.